♥ 7th October 2011 ♥ NEW ME ♥

HALOO GUYS~~
new month, new start and.. new me. should have frgt that guy even tho my heart hurts so much every time im forcing myself to forget him. he already have his girl, just waiting to be official. im happy to know that.. even my heart hurts till i cry and keep on crying till i fall asleep.

he gives me hope.. that no one ever did to me. he makes me trust him so much that he won't hurt me but he did hurt me.. more.

♥ 18 AUGUST 2011 ♥ ALL ABOUT HIM ♥

NAME: KELVIN SOO CHU KHIEN.
NICK NAME: KEL, VIN, MR.POKE AND.. SOO =D
D.O.B: 12th AUGUST 1991

ATTITUDE: SPOILT.
                    SULK.
                    FUNNY.
                    HILARIOUS.
                    ACT CUTE.
                    GENTLE.
                  

FAV.COLOUR: BLUE

♥ 30 July 2011 ♥ SAD LOVE QUOTE ♥

"Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes… just be an illusion." - Javan.
"It takes a minute to like someone, an hour to love someone, but to forget someone takes a life time." - Anonymous.
"The saddest thing in the world is loving someone who used to love you." - Anonymous.
"When you are in love and you get hurt, it’s like a cut... it will heal, but there will always be a scar." - Anonymous.
"It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces." - Anonymous.
"You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel." - Anonymous.
"I hate to see the one I love happy with somebody, but I surely hate it more to see the one I love unhappy with me...." - Anonymous.
"It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all." - Samuel Butler.
"A teardrop is insignificant in a pool of water, but it can touch the soul as it runs down someone’s face." - Anonymous.
"The hardest part of dreaming about someone you love is having to wake up." - Anonymous.
"Its hard to pretend you love someone, when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do." - Anonymous.
"Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult." - Anonymous.
"I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had, but I can't because I know you won't come after me & that's what hurts the most." - Anonymous.
"A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried." - Anonymous.
"Since I can't be with you right now I will have to be content just dreaming about when we will be together again." - Susan Polis Schutz.
"Why is it that we don't always recognize the moment love begins, but we always recognize the moment it ends?" - Anonymous.
"When It's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you." - Anonymous.
"Sometimes you don't realize how much you care for someone until they stop caring for you." - Anonymous.
"Someone can walk into your life and it is not until after they walk out that you realize that they were even there." - Anonymous.

There is a time for departure even when there's no certain place to go." - Tennessee Williams.
"It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." - Samuel Butler.
"Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing." - Anais Nin.
"You wondered how you’d make it through. I wondered what was wrong with you. Because how could you give your love to someone else, yet share your dreams with me? Sometimes the only thing you’re looking for, is the one thing you can’t see." - Vanessa Williams.
"He taught me how to love, but not how to stop." - Anonymous.
"What happens when he's your Prince Charming, but you're not his Cinderella?" - Anonymous.
"Love that we can not have 
Is the one that lasts the longest, 
Hurts the deepest 
And feels the strongest" - Anonymous.
"And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back... " - From the song 'When Im Gone' by Eminem.
"Same old story that everybody knows, it's one heart holding on, one heart letting go." - Anonymous.
"And all the lonely nights and all the crushing scenes and all the pointless fights. Someone tell me what it means. Someone tell me why hearts break. I'm giving up on happy endings." - Anonymous.
"I'm so confused...I mean, I want to let go...I want to let go of all this pain, but I'm afraid I'll go insane...he may come back, I have some hope, but with everything else, how can I cope. I want to let go...I'm going to let go, but if I wait and see, will he come back to me?" - Anonymous.
"You can't buy love, but you can pay heavily for it." - Henny Youngman.
"I miss you a little, I guess you could say...a little too much, a little too often, a little more everyday." - John Michael Montgomery.
"They ignore each other and look the other way, but they both know it wasn't supposed to end this way." - Anonymous.
"Your absence has gone through me
Like thread through a needle
Everything I do is stitched with its color."
- W.S. Merwin, 'Separation'.
"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew." - Anonymous.
"There's this place in me where your finger prints still rest... your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo... It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me." - Anonymous.
"For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, 'it might have been'." - John Greenleaf Whittier.
"I don’t miss him, I miss who I thought he was." - Anonymous.
"A break up is like a broken mirror.
It is better to leave it broken than 
hurt yourself trying to fix it."
- Anonymous

♥ 25 July 2011 ♥

hii guys..
after menghilang selama hampir 3 bulan, im back with more good news~~
korang ingat tak budak cina yg aku dok suka tu?? dia skarang nie makin rapat dengan aku dan at this moment, he is beside me, sleeping coz of tiredness. he looks innocent tho.. =)

ohh yea.. kami mula rapat sejak kitorang sama2 dimasukkan kat Constitution Department untuk Student council fakulti kitorang. so.. sejak tu, kami ada lerr sedikit demi sedikit perkembangan..

Language Center adalah tmpat kami berdua selalu lepak sama2, dan pada masa tu, aku rsa mcm dlm mimpi laah. dia sangat2 manja, perangai yg aku bru tau. pelik kan??

budak cina bercinta ngan budak melayu campuran?? tak pelik ke? hahaa tapi kitorang belum official laah, maseh dok dalam process kenal mengenali hati budi masing2 =) hehee dan aku mulai faham perangai budak tu and can adapt to it hehee.

so,, sampai ni je lah aku kasitau kat korang. bila ada lgi cerita baru tentang aku dan budak tu.. aku kasi tau yek?? janji~~ ahaha bye~~

♥ eric saade - break of dawn ♥

lagu ini aku tujukan untuk sii diaa hehee ♥♥♥♥

♥ 25 May 2011 ♥

8:47 pm
hii people~~ today aku rasa relief sangat.. macam mana aku nak trangkan yer.. aku tak dpat tipu diri aku lahh. hati aku nie ttap gak suka budak cina tuu. aku asyik2 nak lupakan dia tpii tak dpat gak. kjap dia ada, kjap dia takde. kadang dia mcm perlukan perhatian aku tpi kdg, dia hilang tanpa berita. cemana yerr.. apa jenis manusia dia tuu. misteri kot. dan aku rindu nak tngok snyuman dia.. hehee jiwang skejap gak.


tdi pgi dia ada inbox aku.. dia kata jgn brhenti poke dan mc dia sbab da bnda tu akan dpat buat dia trsnyum and lupa skjap hal yg mmbebankan dia. awww.. aku tharu tpii aku takut dia hilang lgi. mcm syok sndiri lahh pulak klau aku mc n poke dia tpi lama baru dia balas. hohoo.. pening  nyer.. 


sekian utk berita hri ini hehee besok au update gik yaa =)

♥ 24 May 2011 ♥

9.42 pm
hii i am back~~ heee i have declare a war with myself. that is... to not fall in love with both of them again. they all are just a test for me whether i can stay single or not and.. YEPPP i made it!! ahaaa update soon again. bye~~ love you all =D

♥ 23 May 2011 ♥

10:33 pm
assalammualaikum korang suma.. hari nie aku sedihh sangat. tak tau knapa jer tiba2 teringat kan ex-bf aku.. yg pling aku sayang and yang pling baik.. yg cuba buat yg terbaik dan semampunya utk buat aku gembira.. ;'c dan the chinese guy yg aku dok minat tuu.. tak menunjukkan sbarang tanda yg dia pun suka kat aku.. apalaah nasib aku niee. dah dpat yg baik,, family dia pulak jdii halangan..

hope 1 day, satu hri nanti.. aku akan jumpa seorang lelaki yg baik dan memahami aku.. amiin.

aandd.. korang nak tau tak result exam aku?? teruuuukk.. entahlah.. semester kdua nie, suma hancur. suma teruk.. mungkin bukan nasib aku kot.. malang kot semester niee hohooo besok2 aku update gik yaa.. sorii lambat nak update,, akuu maseh dilanda 'frust' hohoo

♥ in love ♥

im in love with a guy.. chinese guy. he is kind and.. funny. he is not really cute but attractive =) hohoo but im not sure if he love me too. what should i do?? ada pendapat or anything, guys?

♥ stress ♥

nie laa muka urg yg stress sebab exam, mcam dah hbis exam tpi sebenarnya.. baru nak mula. kantoi beb~~ tak de prepare ape pun, baru ajer nak blajar lepas blik.ntah lahh.. nanti aku tengokkan kat korang result aku if keluar dahh =D

♥ my latest pictures =D ♥

♥ 23 April 2011 ♥

2:17 pm
Hari nie hari jadi usu aku yang ke 20 tahun.. hmm aku tak dpat nak greet die sbab kami dah lama tak btegur sejak dia buat cerita psal aku kat nenek. aku dah maafkan die tpi dia mseh taknak tgur akuu huhuu anywayy.. mulai besok sampai lahh dua minggu dpan, aku takkan update blog nie,, sbab aku dah nak exam. penting tau utk masuk tahun kdua =) so.. berkenaan dgan last clinical placement aku tu.. memeng haru laah. aku habiskan hari terakhir aku kat wad 8 dgn ambulan =D ukan apa, nak mngambil patient. emergency lahh konon nyaa tuu ahaa soo later, i will drop off some of my pics selama kat wad8 tu yee . bye bye kamu kamu =D

p/s: kata orang, hidup nie memang penuh dgn kjutan. and me? TOTALLY AGREED!! hahaa assalammualaikum~

♥ 18 April 2011 ♥

8:38 pm
Minggu nie week terakhir aku attachment kat hospital ripas and aku slalu jer pening2 today. nasib aku tak pengsan waktu check tkanan darah pesakit tdi hohoo dah lah aku nie ansomnia, susah nak tidor. tambah lagi hpotension, tkanan darah rendah. balik dari attachment, terus tido sampai maghrib. fuhh.. lelah sangat lah tuu. and now, aku dah update so aku nak revise lerr.. exam dah nak dekat, 2 weeks aje lagii. so to all yg baca nie, i apprecciate it so much. =)

p/s : jadi jururawat nie kadang2 kena ketepikan perasaan hati and harus bertanggungjawab sepenuhnya kpada patient kitorang. So, patient happy. we also happy =D

♥ ME ♥

♥ Jerudong Park ♥

ni suma gambar kat bawah nie.. antara permainan yang ada hehee

train car utk mmbawa pelancong mengelilingi jerudong park. kat blakang tu is a bumper car place =D

 Dead Man Center : tempat kitaorang main tembak2. if stress, ini ubat terbaik tuk aku~ =D

nie pulak utk kanak2.. wktu kecik aku suka sangat main nie, rasa macam kita yg drive tpi sebenanya tak xp

Junior Round Cycle : aku pun tak pasti apa nama die so aku tmbah sesedap rasa jak xp

Merry Go Round : semua org tau kot ini apa.. waktu kecik tek boleh miss nie (until now xp)

ni Scooter yg terkini where artis hollywood suka main, korang pun boleh main. no hal punya laah~~

ini merupakan lambang Jerudong Park : Diamond Ring. ada yg ckap itu berlian betul tpi until now, blum pasti akan benarnya gosip2 tu suma.

♥ being myself ♥

12:07 noon (17.4.2011)
Today, tuhan turunkan seorang lagi ahli keluarga Adam. aku memang teringin sangat nak tengok baby tu tapii aku risau laa, manatau ada yang salah faham tentu sekarang korang mesti bengang tentang apa yg aku dok cakap nie =D sebenarnya, ex-bf aku punya abang punya bini melahirkan seorang baby boy tadi subuh soo my ex nie ajak aku pegi tengok n melawat sama2 tapi aku malu laah. terus2 datang tanpa angin and tanpa sebarang buah tangan pun hohoo.

Sekarang nie, aku tengah dok update blog nie and tengah tgu ex-bf aku datang nak ambik n makan lunch sama2. kekadang, rasa mcam suka gak aku kat dia tapii kadang, entah laahh. mcam tak suka gak. cemana yerr?? blog nie pun dah mcam diary aku sendiri, takde yg follow and takde sape pun tau akan kewujudan blog kesayangan aku nie hehee so aku end it here. if aku da masa nanti malam, aku update gik yeee =D

p/s: hargailah diri sendiri.. kerna dirimu begitu berharga~~ macam iklan lahh pulak. hahaa

♥ my photo that i captured ♥

indahnya ciptaan tuhan ♥

♥ alone ♥

7:25pm
pernah rasa tak? bila kita rasa kita tak dilayan seperti orang terdekat kita dilayan? pernah tak kita mengharap sesuatu dari orang yangg kita sayang, angan2 yang kita fikir akan berlaku.. tapi akhirnya, takde pa2 pun yang jadi? itu lah yang aku rasa.. apa rasanya waktu ibu memenuhi keinginan anak2nya.. except me. Aku seperti anak angkat, itu yang aku rasakan. aku dah buat yang terbaik.. tapi mengapa aku tak dapat rasa kegembiraan yang abang dan adik2 rasa... ibu tak marah pun bila abang trus balik kg tanpa bertanya kpd ibu ada or inda yang akan mengambil dan menghantar dia balik ke hostel.. tapi aku? seperti menyusahkan..

Pura2 gembira tapi sebenarnya, tak. aku rasa teruk. angah, nenek dan cozn rapat dapat lihat bezanya kasih sayang ibu kpd mereka dan aku.. aku malu.. sedih. Aku sering buat yang terbaik, cuba utk buat ibu bangga, tak pernah pun meminta sedikit wang selama ku mula memasuki universiti.. tapi mengapa aku tidak dapat kasih sayang yang terbaik?? Ya Allah.. kuatkanlah hatiku.. Berikan ketabahan didalam diriku kerna masa depanku bukan untk aku tapi untuk ibu dan adik beradik ku.. Amiin.

p/s: ibu, aku sayang ibu sangat2.. ♥

♥ 16 April 2011 ♥

1:29pm : mata nie terasa ngantuk sangat laa.. hari ni takde klass, cuma ada IRK (Islamic Religious Knowledge) ajerr.. Ustaz Anwari bagi ceramah, sempat gak dia buli aku tadii hohooo.. kalau dapat ditongkat mata nie ngan batang mancis, dahh lama aku simpan kat mata nieh. hohoo wahai mata, janganlah ngantok lakk.. case study about cellulitis nie pun belum siap gii.. hellpp~~!!

♥ Maulud Nabi ♥

selesai majlis, apa lagii.. camera! set! smileeeeee!!

♥ Girls Sleep Over ♥

ME , Ryeena and Amirah =D 

ramai2 tido kat ruang tamu, seronok~~

'free-time creativity'

hasil kreativiti my friends & ME =D

acik , enon, cozn and ME

nie lah adik kecik2 ku yang tersayaangg =D

acik, my cozn (ryeena) and ME~ masa tu meriah sangat. ryeena lahh cozn aku yg paling aku rapat hehee